Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Letters to Survivors (by Matt Atkinson) and New Year's Goals Update

I recently bought a copy of Matt Atkinson's Letters to Survivors. It is really a great book and I recommend it to any survivors. I am reading it slowly, it makes me a little emotional. I'm going to be writing my own letter to survivors to bring to counseling this week...I will post it when I finish.

My New Years Goals...I have been really not doing well at working toward some of them. I have been learning to use my voice more, in small ways. I went to the support group (which went well and I'll be going back in February). I am back on antidepressants. However, I haven't been drinking more water and I started smoking cigarettes again (I quit a few years ago and usually only smoke when I drink, but I have been having wine every night...and that led to smoking a cigarette every night...which has lead to having two or three each day...). I have also not started exercising. To get back on track- I am not going to buy another pack of cigarettes, and this Saturday I am making myself get up and go to a Pilates class. I am not sure why I am having such a hard time with this, I don't think I'm under any more stress than usual. AGHH.

2 comments:

  1. I'm really proud of you for focusing on achieving your New Year's resolutions. Try not to beat yourself up about the cigarettes - slip ups happen, but the main thing is that you stay focused on the end goal!

    I totally understand how difficult it is to get back into exercise. I am struggling big time with that myself. Wishing you good luck and lots of energy as you jump start your pilates classes. Also, thanks for the book recommendation. xxxx

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  2. I have LTS too; it's a great book...though as a contributor, I am a little biased! I can't wait to see what your letter looks like :)

    Do you think it might help to look into why you're doing unhealthy behaviours to cope? It doesn't really need there to be more stress for us to begin to try other methods of stress relief. It may be that we have been running on a certain level of stress for a prolonged period of time and this has altered our way of thinking or subconsciously we are trying new methods of stress relief.

    Try not to punish yourself..though it does sound like you have a positive frame of reference when you talk about changing your behaviours.

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